Sweetest Angel

Tristen is loved and missed by
Dad and Mom, Melissa and David Lord,
and big brother Khayan

Just Because

Just because you can not see me doesnt mean I'm not there
I'm the rain on the windshield
I'm the gentle breeze blowing in the air
I'm all around you watching wanting to feel your touch
Just because you can not see me doesnt mean I'm not there

I think about you all the time too
Although I dont cry tears of sorrow like you do
I am happy in Heaven even though I miss you so
I'm in a wonderful place
Having a great life with no time to waste
There is no sorrow here
Just never ending bliss
I know you are thinking of me
And I know how much I'm missed
I know just because you can not see me that I am there

Just because you can not see me doesnt mean I'm not there
I know this because I watch over you through the good times and the bad
I am everywhere you want me to be and when you are ready you will see
That even though I'm miles it seems
I'm really not that far away
Touch your heart and you will feel me there
Look at a picture and you will see me there
Hug my favorite toy when you want to hug me, I'll be there
Kiss my favorite bear when you want to kiss me, I'll be there
Just because you can not see me doesnt mean I'm not there

Tristen was a beautiful baby boy, who through it all had the brighest smile. Tristen and his big brother, Khayan, were just so close. Khayan was always hugging and kissing him, Tristen would just smile. Tristen kept good spirits about himself. He could not lie on his back due to his defect but in the right position he would play and laugh.

I remember the night before he passed so well. I was playing with Tristen and Khayan got jealous, he wanted momma to play with him too. I started giving both boys raspberries on there stomachs. Tristen just laughed and laughed. Gave us that smile that you had to see to believe. It was just so touching. After a while I laid Tristen down for bed.

At 11:00 I woke Tristen up to feed him. Tristen, Khayan and myself played for a little while longer before I put him back in bed. I was able to see that smile one more time before his was taken under God's wing.

That moment will remain with me forever. Tristen had such a short life but he touched so many in that short time.

We will NEVER forget our sweet angel. Tristen will remain with us until the day God takes us under his wing.

Tristen was only three months, fifteen days old when he passed. But what he left behind will live on forever. Our family is forever lost without him, but we will be found once again when we are reunited with him.

He touched our hearts in so many ways. His smile, his laugh, his love. A beautiful baby boy reached Heaven and is watching from above. Hopefully proud and knowing hes forever loved.

From Khayan Lord (brother)
"I too baby"
Khayan is only two for those who don't know and he could never say "I love you Tristen," he always said, "I too Baby."

The Loaned Child

"I'll lend for a little time a child of mine," He said,
"For you to love the while he lives, and mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call him back, take care of him for me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay, since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over in my search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call to take him back again?"
"I fancied that I heard them say, 'Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness, we'll love him while we may,
And for all the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay,
But should the angels call for him much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand."

-Anonymous-

Click on Tristen's quilt to see his photos.

Tristen

Good morning Angel
Checking in as usual to see how you are today
I know all for you is fine, yet I still cant stop
Thinking of you night and day from dawn until sunset
I miss you more than ever
Every time I see Allynah or Gaige I wish you were still here
So that I could feed you, change you, hold you, hug and kiss you
Just have you here
I feel like I was cheated out of a child I brought here
I know your God's son but I am the one that carried you and gave birth to you
That is something I will always cherish and never forget
I watched you come into the world as with Khayan I did not
I am going to miss all the things I was looking forward to
Giving you and Khayan a bath together, your first birthday
watching you two fight over girls; both so handsome and girl would be lucky
I truly hope and pray you know how much I love you and that I will never let you go
I will try in time to move on but you will always be in my heart
I know that you are watching, I feel it everyday
I know it in the little things you give me comfort in
I know I am not crazy but these things feel like they are signs from you
When I see a baby sleeping and go to check on them they take a big sigh as if to say I'm ok
When I am to scared to "chest" Khayan he seems to smile, move, or take a big deep breath
In my heart I know its you
I asked you to please watch over Khayan and you are doing great
Please know I love you both the same
maybe you a little more because you are so far away
I cant wait to get to Heaven and see you everyday
Until then I will never let you fade
In Momma's heart you will always stay

I love you Tristen